Here we go again!

May 23, 2012

I have made several attempts to maintain this blog. Every attempt failed for two main reasons. First, I don’t have anything interesting to say. Second, I maintained an audience of approximately one … and I can pat my back for only so long before I lose all hope.

Also, in my previous bloggings, I think I missed the mark. I used the blog to promote my work. According to Neil Gaman, a blog is supposed to connect the writer to his/her audience. Mr. Gaman suggests I shouldn’t use the blog to ‘network’ or ‘promote’. The linked article does a better job explaining his main message.

I guess I need to just be myself. Here we go!

I’m an engineer that somehow became a Sales Manager who really just wanted to be an entertainer. I’m a husband married to a wonderful woman and have three amazing kids with fantastic futures in front of them. I try to be a good husband, father, son, son-in-law, brother, brother-in-law, and uncle but I often fall short of those goals. That’s it. That’s me.

And how, in any way, is that interesting??

I saw a Facebook post today from a respected friend say he’s having difficulty finding a balance between the job that pays his bills and the passions that fulfills his life. That is indeed the problem I face on a regular basis. It is the reason I write – to express myself to whatever future audience might actually want to listen. I write to convince myself that I do have something important to share with the world. And it hurts when I come to the harsh reality that no one has any desire to listen.

I suppose that’s an egotistical thing to say. But here’s the deal … it’s a two way street. I love appreciating the art of others. In fact, I think understanding and appreciating the art of another person is vital to our success as a society – as a culture – and as a single human race.

At the risk of sounding grade schoolish … I’ll show you mine if you’ll show me yours.

And with that in mind I’ve finally decided to submit my writing. I’ve chickened out before. I don’t know my own objections in the past. Perhaps, I’ll finally confirm that no one wants to read my stuff.

To keep me honest, I will make you this deal. If I don’t submit at least two short stories to legitimate professional markets by June 30, 2012. I’ll pay anyone who reads this post $25. (You will just have to come to my house and collect. I may even give you my new novel and ask if you’d be a beta reader.)

So to my audience of only one …